Wicked Big Dreams

We did it!  As of December 1st, 2016 I will be a homeschooling, urban homesteading stay-at-home (but still working,…more on that later) mama!

What changed?

Honestly, the ONLY thing that changed was our mindset.  And that was all we needed.

The Background

We live in the Northeast (suburban Massachusetts), where pretty much every family has two working parents and avails themselves of the excellent childcare.  Of course, this childcare comes with a huge pricetag, but that is just how it’s done these days.

We both have great jobs, making good incomes, and were pretty typical.  Well, except for the backyard chickens.  I work for an amazing nonprofit.  I have amazing colleagues and truly incredible bosses.  But, I was absolutely miserable.

Since the birth of our second child, I have been unhappy.  I tried everything, from yoga to therapy.  I finally ended up on medication for anxiety, depression, and acid reflux due to stress.  I realized this was not normal, but I was afraid to change anything.

My Doubts:

I am a worrier by nature so my doubts were extreme and plentiful, especially in the middle of the night.  How could we afford it?  What if someone invited us out for dinner and we couldn’t afford it?  What if we had to sell things?  WHAT IF WE LOST OUR HOUSE?  What if our marriage crumbled?  What if…what if…what if.

The Leap to Faith:

I use the phrasing leap TO faith because I had to really leap to put my trust in God and make a change.  We finally decided, after much deliberation and budgeting conversations to make the jump to a one income family and home educate our children.  It was terrifying until it was done.  The decision was made, and I’ve never felt a greater sense of relief and joy.

Over the next few weeks, I will be doing a series on how we came to this decision and what factors we considered.  If you’d like to follow along, click here to subscribe: Stay Wicked Small

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